GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

I stayed up in school till 4am yesterday. Talk about endurance, I was one of the first few to leave, together with deb&bf and nurul. I died okay, pangsai. But towards the starting of the late night morning, it wasn't that bad together with Lisa and Deb. We were talking nonsense while doing work dilligently. Then the hyped tide down a little, until Deb's bf came and we don;'t know how started on the topic of abstinence and Deb just went like "abstinence ah" to her bf. We laughed like crazy. OKAY IT SEEMS LIKE ITS NOT VERY ASSURING THAT WE DID LAUGH, BUT WE DID LAUGHED.

On the other hand, I silently made a vow to myself in the cab home yesterday that I should use less hokkien and chinese now. These 2 come out of me unconsciously whenever I'm desperate. Not that they are bad, but it's weird if I were to speak in chinese and hokkien to a bunch of people who barely understands "simi" is "what" in hokkien.

The set up is finally up, left with 2 frames, the wiring and the set up and the confirmation of prep. Can't wait for all these to be over. Been totally out of civilisation for God knows how long. I wake up at 530am, leave school at 630am, all the way till 9pm, sleep at 3-4plus am. And the cycle continues. It's a neverending story. (Like Bayu Utomo Radjikin) The last time I ever remembered being out of civilisation was during the CLT camp, when George came and coined up that term.

So as I was bawling my eyes out yesterday due to insufficient of sleep and excessive scoldings and pressure with slight accusations, in the fusion house, We had unexpected visitors. Just when I thought tearing in front of miss yeo and CS and XC and deb and ter and lisa was bad enough, Jerry and Alvin came. Wrong moment. But thanks for the pens and donuts, they helped (:

As I was eating the donuts, facing the corner, not much difference from a prisoner of war, just that I'm fatter, clothed and eating a donut in an aircon room, I felt really pathetic. I don't know why, I felt so small and pathetic and F-ed up.

I miss spending time with jayjay and weister.
I miss spending time with the coterie.
I miss spending time with mom and dad.
I miss picking up your phone calls as I'm always rejecting them.
I miss meeting up with wifey.

Quoting Michelle: "Sadness fills my heart." And Hanpin will never fail to correct me: "nynette, it's sadness and sorrows fills my heart." -_-

I left my skirt in the fusion house, I'll be skirtless on monday. Whooo, I'll be using my membership FINALLY.